Thank you, from the bottom of my heart!!

  Thank you to all my lovely reader friends for all the sweet, loving, and encouraging words! Thank you, for your love and all the wonderful prayers!! It means a lot!! You guys are the best! Thank you for caring about me and my family. I am truly blessed to have you guys apart of my life!! Hugs and kisses to you all!! Love you guys!! xoxox


The Loss of our baby #4

  I don’t even know where to start. I am sad, mad, angry, confused, hurt, shocked and every other emotion there possibly is. I would have never thought in a million years that this would have happened to me. Not because i feel like am perfect or anything in that sorts, but I don’t think anyone can think or imagine something like this happen to them nor does anyone want this to happen. It is by far one of the hardest things that I can ever go through.  
This is only the beginning stage, I’m sure I will cry and hurt some more as this process finishes. Its so sad to think of what could have been but, can no longer be! This was exactly how I wanted everything to go. I wanted Madison to be oh so very close in age with this new little one but, obviously, God has other plans. It hurts because I truly thought this was God’s plan for me to have this baby… and I guess it was… it just took a different turn then what I had imagined.
Ladies who have gone through this more then once… I don’t even know what to say… because by me saying you are strong does not help one bit of what you are feeling or what you must have felt. But what I do know now is that you are not alone ( i am not alone). People can tell you over and over that it is better now then later on in pregnancy for this to happen (which is true), but anything or everything that anyone says cannot undo what I am or you are feeling. The process itself is so hard. Seeing and feeling your body get rid of this precious little thing that could have been is just beyond sadness.
YES,  I know, i am truly very blessed that i already have 3 beautiful healthy baby girls.  i am so very, very thankful for them and blessed to be able to have kids! but, this doesn’t make this process any easier, it still hurts… a lot.
God knows the plans he has for me and I know that he will turn this into good.
As mad as I was at Him and angry, deep down inside, I know, His way is the best way. He knows what my future awaits me and my family. I cant see my future but He can, so that is why He knows what is best for me in the long run. I will always trust in him even through the storms because I know he brings sunshine in the end results.

Vegas Baby!

  2 weeks ago (before I knew I was pregnant) we went to Vegas for 6 days. Ray has his seminar (Mike Ferry) out there so the girls and I tagged along. It’s so nice just to get away and have a change of routine.

We had tons of fun!! Are days pretty much consisted of room service in the morning and sometimes room service for lunch and pool time everyday! After Ray would get off his seminar we would head to dinner and walk around the MGM grand hotel.

Friday and Saturday we got to do more since the seminar had finished. We took the girls to circus circus, which they loved, because they got on their first rides!! On Saturday was mostly on all day pool day, and after we headed to Caesers Palace, walked around all the shops, and ate at the Cheesecake Factory. We had such a great time! It’s always good to have a change of routine, no cleaning, no cooking, all day at the pool, and best of all… quality time with the family.


Baby #4 Coming March 2013!

Madison’s 1st Birthday

  Madison you are ONE years old!! Where has the time gone?!
We celebrated your birthday on your birthday, Sunday July 15th. We decided to do something small for you with just the family since we were heading out to Vegas early the next day.
You had a fun time running around and playing. You enjoyed opening up your gifts and playing with some of the new toys you got! When it came to eating the cake you really didn’t chow down like I thought you would, you kinda just stared at the cake and touched it a few times.
Madison, you are so loving to your sisters. When either Raychel or Oceana is crying you run up to them and give them hugs and kisses. You are a sweet heart! You want to keep up with them on whatever they do.
Oh, Mad… you do have a feisty side! Boy, do you not let anyone pick on you! You fight back- hahaha! Even when I tell you no or I take something away from you, you get so mad that you pinch me! I have no clue were this side of you came from ( I think dad lol ). Boy am I going to have my hands full with you!
Madison, besides this feisty side of you… I see that you are one smart girl!! You like coloring at such a young age, 1!! and you hold your pencil/coloring crayon like your supposed to! You’re  a climber… you climb everything even Raychel’s latter and you make it all the way to the top of her bed all by your self. Which is very scary for me, because I do not want you falling off. I hide the latter under oceana’s bed every day. Madison, you also try to jump like your sisters do, Its so funny watching you try to jump. You are a good listener, you understand me when I tell you to bring me something or to give whatever you have to your sister or whoever. Mad, I am so blessed to have you as my daughter, you are amazing! I know God has big plans for you and your sisters!! Never give up on anything and whatever you do give 100% at all times.

 Hello Kitty theme 😉

 singing happy birthday

Daddy and Mommy love you so much! xoxoxoxo
Happy 1st Birthday, sweet heart!!

Oceana’s 3rd Birthday!

   We celebrated Oceana’s Birthday on her actual birthday which was on Wednesday June 13th. It was a last minute put together birthday party, but it actually turned out great! I think it turned out better then if we would have planned it in advance.
Before her little birthday party started we both went to get our hair done with my sister-in-law.
Oceana looked so cute sitting in the chair getting her hair all curled up! She kept turning back all shy to where I was to see if I approved of how her hair was looking, and every time she would turn I would smile big and give her a thumbs up!

I very much enjoyed this bonding time with my little OC.

 After getting our hair done we went to Baskin Robbins for ice cream and a milk shake! We both had tons of fun spending quality time with each other! I defiantly have to do this with each one of my girls.

We got home and a few hours later the party started. Oceana had such a blast with all her little friends and cousins.
 Sweet Sofia <333
Cake time!

 Present time!

 the girls went all out with the makeup OC got for her b-day gift

Happy 3rd Birthday Oceana!!! We love you so much, sweet peanut!!

411 link up!

 1. How long have you been blogging? And what got you started on blogging? Has your blog changed?
I have been blogging for two and a half years now, and it pretty much has stayed the same.

2. Did you go to college? If so where, and what did you study?

I did for two years and then dropped out and went to beauty school instead. 

3. Where have you traveled?
Mexico, Nevada (Las Vegas), Hawaii, Spain, Africa, Puerto Rico, Caribbeans (on a cruise).

4. If you won the lottery, what would be the first thing you would buy?
A beautiful home in the gates of Blackhawk (danville ca), Investment properties, A vacation for the whole family, new cars, and I would donate a big portion to those who need.

 5. What are your 3 biggest pet peeves?
People who Chew gum with their mouth open, ugh! People who cant show any love (if you know what I mean), and bad customer service.

6. What is your favorite movie?
Can’t decide?!

7. What is your drink of choice; wine, beer, or liquor. Or Water, Soda, Tea?
I cant live without milk, but I do love me some cold beer in the summer time 😉

8. What is something you enjoy to do when you have me time?
blog, take pictures.

9. If you could have a $10,000 shopping spree to one store, which store would it be?

10. Share with us an embarrassing moment of your past? Or present.
Well this just happened while I’m out here in Vegas… the hubs, the girls and I were out by the pool and this couple in their early forties who have no kids nor does it sound like they have been around kids much come up to us and start talking to us about our girls and how we do it with all 3 and if there is a lot of kid friendly things/restaurants at the MGM and I said, “yes, they have the Rain Forest Cafe restaurant… have you guys been there?! (oh man!! Of course not!! they’re in Vegas who is going to go to the rain forest cafe for dinner when they are out in Vegas with no kids!! I was embarrassed lol! and of course they kinda laughed and said no. Ray was like, “Oh, Olga!” after they had  left . 

11. What day would you love to relive again?
My wedding day!

12. If your life was turned into a movie… what actor would play you?
I. Have. No. Clue. Maybe my best friends’ would know this one.

13. What are the jobs you had in high school/college/the early years?
taking care of old people, baby sitting, Mexican restaurant (hostess and waitress), chiropractic office (receptionist).

14. Show us a picture from high school or college.
I’m in Vegas right now and i am using the hubs business laptop so no pictures 😦

15. If you could travel anywhere in the world, all expenses paid, where would you go?

16. Show us the most current picture of you or you, or your family, or anything of meaning to you.

Love this!! If you follow me on instagram then you might have already seen this. Oceana is giving daddy a kiss right before he goes back to his seminar and us girls to the pool. Melts my heart!! <333333 
17. Where do you see your life 5 years from now?
Living in the gates of Blackhawk, Ray being the owner of Reality World in Blackhawk, having my husband and my 3 girls and my little guy by my side. my kids attending the bests schools, and most important, that we are all together,  healthy, and full of love and happiness no matter what!! 

Linking up with frommrstomama!

Becky, thank you for this! This was so much fun!!

Vlog Update!

 I keep saying I am going to get on it and start posting more often, but I have fallen short. It’s just too busy around here to focus on this little space of mine. But, I have so many things to post!! Oceana’s birthday party, Madison’s birthday party, Vegas (which I am here now!) and all the little things in between!!

Oceana will be starting preschool in August with her big sis, so this will give me time to blog! Madison is still on two naps, so it’ll work perfect! Yay for mommy time!

I got a new layout lol!  In hopes to motivate me to update this little space more often 🙂

Here is a little video of us in Vegas…

A-Camping We Will Go

A few weekend ago, Raychel, Oceana and Madison went camping for the first time! Boy, did they have a blast!!
We went camping with friends and their kiddos, so that made it all the more fun!! The girls loved everything about camping, from sleeping in a tent to playing in the lake all day to making yummy smores before bed. They enjoyed everything that camping has to offer.

This camping trip was a lot of fun, BUT it did have its up and its down.
My lovely husband decided to take a four hour nap during the day while I, the girls, and all his friends were on the lake! This made me very upset, because this was supposed to be a family thing and he was sleeping for most part of the day. He left me some what alone with the girls, and it was a little rough, because… first of all… Madison cant even walk yet so I couldn’t put her down, and Raychel & Oceana needed to be watched while they swam in the lake, they all needed to be feed and these were all Ray’s friends, which I love, but come on now, don’t leave me hanging.  Well… once ray finally woke from his nap, he made it up to me. He felt bad. He cuddled me, loved on me, and we ended up having a great one on one time together to talk (while Madison napped).
Ray does work very hard through out the week and some weekends, so I can understand how tired he must be once he gets time to relax, but this particular day it made me very upset, but in the end it all worked out for the good!
If Ray didn’t take that four hour nap then maybe we wouldn’t have had this great one on one quality talk that brought us all the more closer.  
You may ask, why is she posting this? Because, I want to show the reality of our camping trip. This camping trip was tons of fun, and these pictures will show you that, but like any healthy, normal marriage you get up set with your spouse, the important thing is how you handle it. I could have stayed mad all day, but it wouldn’t be worth it. I love this man and I know how hard he works for us and he knows how hard I work as a mom and a wife, so we talked about what I  (we) was/were  feeling and it turned out to be the best thing! 
I am now very thankful for that four hour nap!