God is Faithful

  You are God,
You are Good,
Forever faithful One!!
We are expecting!!!!
If you didn’t hear about our first loss click {{here}}
Last Friday, I had my second doctors appointment and I got to see my baby’s heart beat!! The first appointment Ray and I seen our little seed of a baby and its little heart beat!! Praise God! This second time (Friday) I seen it again and little baby got so much more bigger!! It was such a beautiful sight to see!! Its amazing how fast they grow in just 2 weeks!
We are over joyed and we continue to pray for a healthy pregnancy and baby. Please keep us in your prayers.
Thank you heavenly Father for a fast re-pregnancy and this sweet baby!! I am overjoyed with this pregnancy, I cannot wait to see my belly grow and give birth to this child!! The only thing is this 24/7 nausea is not fun. cant wait till second trimester!

On my way to my appointment

This was my first appointment at 6 weeks.

This was my second appointment at 8weeks 3days
Sweet Baby #4 Due In May 2013!!!

My Mission Field

My family is my mission field.

There is no other occupation that is sacrificial as motherhood.
Being a mom is a wonderful opportunity to live the gospel.
I have to teach my children and guide them in the right path. 
Through my girls is the starting point where I can minister to so many more people.
Being a mom is giving up yourself.

picture taken by my baby girl, Raychel!! {only reason why I’m posting it not my fave}

How can I serve somewhere else if I complain here in my own home with the people I love the most?!
This, right now, me being a mom, cleaning, picking up my girls toys for the 100th time, doing loads and loads of laundry, cooking meals, wiping noses, changing diapers, potty training, story times, disciplining, comforting, nursing, kissing boo boos, teaching and guiding my girls, and loving & helping my husband  is right where I am supposed to be!
God loves the little offerings that are done with love. These little or not so little things, do them as if doing it for the Lord. These little things are BIG things to God!! and I thank Him!! I thank you Lord for this time in my life to serve my family. You have blessed me with a beautiful family!! and I will lay myself down for them! For you have come to serve, and us as moms are setting a small example of that. Thank you, Father God. Keep keeping me focused on what matters most, setting my priorities straight!

Sleep? What’s That???

Seriously, I don’t know what its like to sleep 2 full hours straight anymore.

Madison is driving me insane! She wakes up every hour crying. I wake up every hour crying too lol.

I feel like I have aged so much more in these 4 days/night then in my whole life time. I look scary.

Oh, Madison! What is going on with you sweet baby girl. I pick you up and  nurse you, but you only take a few little drinks, so I don’t think you are all that hungry. I think your problem is that you want to be held! If I put you back in your crib when you are not fully asleep you get so mad and start kicking and screaming/crying I have to pick you back up again and try to calm you down. When you’re in deep sleep then I can put you down and your fine, but as soon as mommy is finally falling into deep sleep, there you go again. I know we are in a new place, and you are teething, but I am not sure these are the reasons why you are waking up. I do know that the grandparents started rocking you to sleep, and now it seems like that’s all you want because when I do rock you, you stop crying. During the day you do the same. You love being held and when I put you down to play with your toys you’ll cry, sometimes you wont and you’ll play happily. What I need to start doing is holding you less through out the day and for the grandparents to stop rocking you to sleep!

Any other suggestions?? You would think this being my third child I would know what to do, but I don’t.

Awake, I dream about how AMAZING 3 hour sleep must feel like. I miss you SLEEP!!! Come back soon, please! This mama needs you or else I will be feeling and looking like a 60+ year old woman.

PS I don’t really like asking my mom or the hubs to help because I feel as a SAHM its my responsibility to get up with her at night, and it doesn’t bother me getting up, I just really wish I didn’t have to and she would sleep through the night! So, I am on a mission to figure out how to get this girl sleeping through the night!! HELP ME!! suggestions, please!!

Note: if this post doesn’t make sense and its all over the place it’s because I have only gotten 8 hours of sleep in 5 days 😉

Oh! on another note… i was featured over at Kelsey’s blog here 🙂

I don’t even know why I am crying?!

  … are the words that came out of my almost 4 year old! What? Really? She hasn’t even hit her teens and she is already very emotional! Dear, Lord! Help this momma out!!

Here is the story… we arrive home from my mom’s house, I unbuckle Oceana and carry her in my arms since she was sleeping. At that moment Ray also arrives home so he helps me get Madison out of the car. Raychel unbuckles herself and gets herself out of the car, as usual. I went on into the house to put Oceana down, then Raychel comes storming in crying her little eyes out. Ray then comes in and I ask Ray, “Why is Raychel crying?” he says, “I have no Idea?” Raychel is in our room bawling. Ray and I ask, ” Raychel why are you crying?” she says, “I don’t even know why I am crying?” What? No. she did not just say that?!! were the thoughts going through my head. Ray then says, “Raychel, if you are going to be crying for no reason, please go to your room and cry there.” Raychel takes off running to her room and closes the door and cries in her room. Ray and I just let her cry it out. I start the girls bath and then Ray and I go into Raychel’s room and she kinda stops crying, I then say, “Raychel your baths ready!” she gets all excited and kinda giggles and gives me a big hug, and hops right into the bath. The End!

Oh, Lord! They haven’t even hit their teens and they’re already acting like this! All I know is that Ray and I will be doing A LOT of praying, because we sure are going to need the big mans help!

On a different note… Elizabeth {my sister}is blogging!!! She is new to the bloggie world, so please send her some love and check her bloggie out!! The Journey, Elizabeth and Hugo. her and her husband are seriously the cutest, goofiest, spontaneous couple you will ever meet!

A week without texting, checking e-mails, and going on the computer

I was feeling overwhelmed these last couple weeks.

I felt that I wasn’t doing a good job on being a mother for my girls.

I felt blah.

I felt.. in a sense… lost.

I felt so disconnected from everything.

I felt disconnected from God.

All I wanted to do was to get away for a whole day and be with my husband and God. And that is exactly what I did.

Ray and I went to the beach last Sunday.

There is something so beautiful and so freeing about the beach.

Ray and I sat there and looked out at God’s beautiful work. We layed on the sand in quietness hearing the wonderful waves splashing.

Ray napped in the sand while I put my feet in the cool water. I talked with my wonderful maker letting Him know how I been feeling and that I need more of Him in my life. I needed Him to give me that extra strength to be the best wife and mom I could be. Once my lovely husband woke from his nap we prayed together and headed on out.

I told Ray that I was going to take a whole week without going online, texting and checking e-mails {my little retreat}. I felt that I need to focus more on God’s word, my girls, and my hubs and not be distracted by texting someone or checking my e-mails or going on the computer.

This past week went great! On not having to text, check e-mails or go on the computer. It was nice that if anyone wanted to reach me they just called me. I actually loved it so much better then texting! Its so nice to hear the persons voice instead of seeing a text. I loved the calls I would get from friends and family just to say hi, since they knew I wouldn’t respond to text. Ray and I always text through out the day, so each time he would want to text me he called. I loved hearing my phone ring with his calls through out the day.

By not texting, checking e-mails, and or going on the computer, I played and listened more carefully to my girls. I played with them as if there was no tomorrow.

I talked with my heavenly father and read His word every morning, and prayed through out the day.

This was exactly what I needed. I needed to focus 100% on God and my family, and it was a blessing. I will defiantly be doing more of these on a monthly basis. I believe God sometimes gives you more then you can handle, because if we were able to handle everything on our own then maybe we wouldn’t seek of Him all that much. But he gives us more then we can handle so we can learn to trust in Him and to seek Him and He will bring us help/rest.

Mathhew 11:28
 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.

Dirty House = Stressed Out Mama

  I dislike having my house a mess! It stresses me out! I feel gross, disorganized, and sometimes I cant enjoy playing or doing things with my girls if the house is a mess.  
Today, I was busy all morning that I didn’t even have time to make the bed. The first thing I do when I get out of bed is make the bed… and… today… it just didn’t happen. Not only did i not make the bed i also had clothes that needed to be folded and put away since last night!
The girls and I were running late to take Raychel to school that It didn’t give me a chance to pick anything up around the house or make the girls beds.
Yesterday, the girls cousins came over and they were all having a blast playing in the play room that it looks like it was struck by a tornado! Did I mention that I dislike leaving my house when its a mess? Ugh… I really do!

After dropping Raychel off at school, I got gas, I then headed to Safeway {nursed Madison in the car before heading to Costco}and Costco with Oceana and Madison. Once I got all the groceries I headed back home to put the groceries in their place then off to pick Raychel up. We got Raychel, we headed home and I got lunch ready for all of us and the hubs {he always comes home for lunch ;)}, nursed madi, THEN the cleaning began!
I had to stop cleaning for a few minutes to give this girl some attention. She wanted me to take a picture of her so she can show daddy that she is, not looks, but that she is a princess! lol!
After I finished cleaning I could hear the Hallelujah chorus!!
{when i seen this picture i though… “Oh! there is the other black sock under the bassinet!” haha! }

Now, i can enjoy some QT with my girls!!! {note: Madison was sleeping the whole time while I was cleaning, and right when i got done it was feeding time!} off to go play with my girls before making dinner at 5:30 😉 
PS I love my girls… they come first before any dirty dishes, laundry, messy house, etc. There will always be dirty dishes to clean, laundry to be fold and put away, toys to be picked up, but never again will my girls be this age… so with that being said there has and will be times that I have and will leave the house a mess to play or take them out for some fun QT! {then ill rush back home and clean like a crazy women lol!}

{Just One Of Those Days}

Today I had my whole schedule planned out, but this morning everything changed and it did not go according to what I had planned for my day to go. I am the type of person that when my day doesn’t go the way I thought it would I get impatient and frustrated, because now its a whole new thing then what I was expecting to happen. My girls did not have a good start this morning, they were crying about any little thing, fighting with each other and both wanting mommies attention… all this while I am trying to get things done around the house before I had to head on out. Its stressful, and its testing/tested my patience. 

About a month ago I went to our mom2mom group at our church, and we had a great speaker, Scarlett, she talked about being a mom and the season we are in.  She was telling all of us mommies to treasure moments with our little ones because time goes by fast! And that these times are precious, and this season will pass. We go through seasons in life and right now for me my season is raising my girls and raising them up for the Lord. There are times when I just imagine, and want, to travel the world with Ray and we both speaking to people and prophesies to people about our Lord Jesus Christ but, right now I am in the season to train my kids up for the Lord, and I have to remember to treasure these moments and cherish every minute of it! This can/is (be) the beginning of God teaching me something big (Patience maybe?) for when the next seasons come, I will be prepared. 

God knows how I/you will be filling today in this season, I just have to remember and be strong to put Him first, pray, and be joyful. Scarlett gave us mommies these 4 key versus and today I am challenged to put them into practice.

1. Colossians 3:23
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord

2. Proverbs 22:6
Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.

3. Nehemiah 8:10
For the joy of the Lord is my strength

4. Philippians 4:13
I can do everything through him who gives me strength

 I will be patient with everyone in the name of Jesus… starting with those incredibly special little people who happen to call me mommy.

Here are a few pictures of our day today…

Oceana would not let go of my leg while I was vacuuming! She wanted me to pick her up and hold her, but being pregnant and holding a 21 month old and vacuuming at the same time.. ugh..no. I felt so bad =( but she needs to learn that she has to wait till mommy is done! and after, I picked her up and we had a great time playing…

 I love this!! When I am playing my music Oceana will close her eyes so tight… I know its because she sees me/everyone at our church closing their eyes while singing praises to God.

 Happy Wednesday everyone!! Tomorrow and every Thursday I am going to be doing Hubby Thursdays! Who ever wants to tag/link on up, link on up!!