My Insecurities & B e a u t i f u l Words

  My husband writes a vision letter on how 2012 will look like by the end of the year. He writes about how his spirituality, business, physical body, social life, finances, family, his 3 daughters, and I (us) will be like by the end of 2012. This is his second year writing a vision letter, and I just had to share what he wrote about me!! It also plays in with my insecurities that I have been… I guess… dealing with? well… first off… here is the B E A U T I F U L letter he wrote about me (us).

Your relationship with your wife has been amazing! Like all marriage’s there has been ups and downs, but you are so blessed to have her in your life! She understands you, respects you, appreciates you, believes in you and stands by you 100% all the time. You have been able to keep growing each year only because of her. Olga is such a great mother with handling our 3 daughters. She is able to take care of them, keep the house clean, have food on the table for us, laundry done (which she slips a little on that, but I have seen an improvement this year) and take care of me. What a super woman! I could not have asked for a better women! I am so glad she is by my side experiencing this journey together! We have been able to implement 1 date night minimum a month and at least 1 quality time together every week! We are still madly in love with each other and those few weekend getaways to Lake Tahoe alone have been great and much needed. I could not be moving forward in life if Olga was not by my side, praise God she is, and I cant wait for our lives to be 20 years in advance when we have built our empire and we are traveling all over the world together and spending all the more quality time together!

This letter is just what I love to hear from my husband!! I love these beautiful words!!! I love to hear that I am still loved by this man who I am so deeply in love with and could not imagine my life without him! While I was reading Ray’s vision letter about me, I was surly on cloud 9, but you know, Satan tries to steer my thoughts in the wrong direction.

As you were reading this letter you seen it has my name on it, right? but, Ray’s original version did not, it just had “she.” The thoughts that come to my head were surly from Satan himself! these were the thoughts… Ray is not talking about you, he wishes it was someone else… that’s why he doesn’t write your name on it. Yeah… stupid, I know! Of course he is talking about me!! I am his wife and we have the most amazing beautiful little girls together… and… we. are. madly. in. love. with. each. other.

Satan tries to fill my head with lies! He wants to take my joy away! Satan also attacks me in my dreams. I have nightmares, often,  about Ray leaving me and that he no longer loves me and he wants to be with someone else. Satan is a BIG fat liar and this is his only way he is able to attack me, through my dreams and thoughts. He knows I am insecure about myself physically and mentally, so this is where he tries to take hold of me to believe his lies! Like I said, and will say it again, Satan is a liar! of course he wants me to believe these things, he wants what God brought together to be separated, he wants marriages to fail, he wants to see people unhappy and turn away from God. BUT, the voice of truth tells me a different story! The voice of truth says do not believe these lies! The voice of truth says, Ray and I are a power couple, and Satan knows it!! He knows that God has set Big plans for Ray and I,  All for the glory of God!!! He knows I am weak in this area and that’s where he attacks. This area of insecurity about myself I will give it to Jesus! God will surly turn it around! So, I choose to believe the truth!! God NEVER lies, God is not a liar, He can not lie!! Our God, Jesus Christ, wants us to live an extraordinary life in him!!! So, ladies, do not believe the lies that come into your head! We are wonderfully made, and God wants us to live EXTRAORDINARY!

~NUMBERS 23: 19 God is not a man, so he does not lie. He is not human, so he does not change his mind. Has he ever spoken and failed to act? Has he ever promised and not carried it through?

~JEREMIAH 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

~PSALM 139: 14 I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well.


A Surprise in the Fridge!

  Saturday morning I woke up to Ray and the girls playing in our bed. Madison woke up like 4 times that night, so I did not want to wake up and get out of bed, but with Ray playing with the girls in our bed it was not helping, so I got up, went to the bathroom to put my contacts on, while putting them on Ray says, “Can you make some eggs and sausage?” I did not respond {honestly, that was not the first thing I wanted to hear in the morning, maybe, a “good morning, my love” would have been way better}, I just grabbed Madi and headed to the kitchen. Ray and I began to talk about random things as I was getting the pan on the stove to begin making some eggs and sausage. As I was about to open the fridge Raychel blocks me and starts hanging up her drawing with the magnets we have to stick her drawing on the fridge. So, I just wait for her to finish and I look over at Ray and he is just standing there looking at me {which was a little strange, because normally he is in his office making some calls or talking to a client while I make breakfast}. Finally, Raychel finishes hanging her drawing and I open the fridge. To my surprise this is what I seen…

It was so beautiful to read these words he wrote. You know, sometimes we get caught up with work and the every day routine that we forget to tell each other how thankful we are to have one another, and how much we appreciate the things we do for each other. Ray is not a guy who expresses his feeling very often so when he does, I am on cloud 9! I love hearing these words come from the man I love, the man I want to spend the rest of my life loving!
Thanks, my love!!
It means so much to me when you give me cards/notes like this!!

{Dear Our 3 Blessings/Princesses}

I don’t think it ever crossed my mine that I would be a mommy to 3 girls!!! I always thought that I would have one of each, but your dad and I couldn’t be any happier!! This is what God wants for us and we are blessed, and thankful! We are so excited for you McKenzie to join our family!! Our God is amazing and is doing great things in our family and you are one of them! You know girls, daddy and mommy want nothing but the best for you guys, and we know that God should always be the center (first) of our family for all things to work out. I see your dad today more then ever wanting and yearning to get closer to God and know more about Him, and what God wants dad’s role to be in this time. I know that a big part that’s encouraging daddy to want to know more about Jesus Christ and what He wants for our family is you girls! Because he knows that without God we are lost, and by him walking in Gods direction is the BEST thing he can ever give you girls, and of course loving me =).  I am so proud of your dad and I love him more and more each day! you know girls, Mommy realized these few days… well I already knew, but it just hit me even more these past days that daddy is also a child of God and mommy needs to love daddy and treat him the way God would want me to treat his child. God loves daddy so much, so I also need to love daddy and see him through our heavenly father eyes. Its not that I wasn’t loving daddy or not being being a good wife, but to love him also in a different way and see him in a different view then just my husband or your dad.  It has helped me just to care and be more patient towards him by seeing him through the eyes of our God. I love him so much that all I want is for him to be loved like he has never been loved. God is love and we should follow in his foot steps and show love, kindness, and forgiveness to all.   

 Daddy and I are trying our very best to be the best examples we can ever be for you guys. We know that even at a young age you guys are watching our every little move, from what we say to each other and to you girls and how we act towards each other and other people, and our actions we take towards everything. I pray that I can be the best mommy I can ever be, and to be the best example of how a child of God should walk, and teach you guys the best I can ever teach you girls about our Lord Jesus, so that when you girls get older you will stay firm in His path and never apart from it! I can see you girls doing great things for Gods kingdom, leading people who are lost and broken and in need of that true love that is filling that only comes from our amazing God. I can see you girls having a heart for people. I/we pray for you girls always. I am so glad you guys will have each other to lean on and to encourage each other, always love each other, and pray for one another. We love you Raychel, Oceana, and McKenzie so very much!!! We are so excited to see all the great things God is doing in our life!


Mommy and Daddy <33333