My number 1 real estate agent!

  I love this man!! He truly is amazing!
His career is no doubt one of the most stressful jobs out there. As most of you know being a real estate agent you are self employed, so this means if he doesn’t list a home or find a home for his clients he doesn’t get paid. this is not your average Monday through Friday 8-5 job, no, you have to actually get out there and work or else there is no paycheck! Your mentality has to be strong, and positive, because you will hear tons of “No’s” and rude people who have nothing but bad words coming out of their mouth. Being a real estate agent isn’t easy, there is more behind the sense then his commission you see at the end of the closing. Specially, now, in this market, you have to work twice as hard to find those clients and get them to list with you. Anyway, I can go on and on, but all I want to say is that I am so proud of my amazing husband for his hard work and courage to take on a career like this. Thanks for providing for me and our girlie’s, babe!!
the blue is his pendings and the green are his solds! his goal is to sell 75 homes!
 this pic, of course, was before I cut my hair 😉
PS this was part of our date night. after dinner and a movie (10pm) we went to his office so he can get some papers for his clients ASAP. Talk about dedication!!
This is your agent if you leave in the east bay!
ready for our date night

 dinner time!
movie time


are we renting our marriage or are we owning it?!

 Over the weekend I was reminded how beautiful a marriage can be and at the same time how hard it can be as well.
Are we renting our marriage or owning it?
Marriage is like owning a property or for some it’s like renting.
When we rent a property we don’t take that great care of it as if it were our own. When we rent and if something is terribly wrong with the property, what do we do? We would probably leave it and go find another. BUT, when we own our property and something goes terribly wrong, we don’t leave it and go looking for another, we stay and we do whatever it takes to fix those problems. Marriage is so similar. We should always own our marriage. We made a vow, a commitment to stay through the good times and the bad. If something goes wrong we work at it till its fixed no matter how long the process of fixing it will take, we stick with it because we own it, we are committed to it. 
 It seem like now a days we are renting our marriages and when something goes wrong we leave it and go rent somewhere else. There will always be problems whether its in this property or the next. No one is perfect. We are all unique in our own way. No two people think the same way, and that’s beautiful! Marriage is a beautiful thing, it teaches us to work together, it teaches us who we really are or who we want to be and not be. Marriage is between two people who love each other no matter how imperfect one or the other is. Marriage is two people committed to helping each other out. It’s not all just about you/me or him, its about both of us as one. 

In the end when the property is all fixed up and finished, we will love it and appriciate it all the more!

Let us change this generation and stop being renters of our marriages, lets own them!! There is power in marriages, lets keep them together!
{this of course doesn’t apply for those who are being abused physically or mentally or any other unhealthy situation}

my new look!



Thank you, from the bottom of my heart!!

  Thank you to all my lovely reader friends for all the sweet, loving, and encouraging words! Thank you, for your love and all the wonderful prayers!! It means a lot!! You guys are the best! Thank you for caring about me and my family. I am truly blessed to have you guys apart of my life!! Hugs and kisses to you all!! Love you guys!! xoxox

The Loss of our baby #4

  I don’t even know where to start. I am sad, mad, angry, confused, hurt, shocked and every other emotion there possibly is. I would have never thought in a million years that this would have happened to me. Not because i feel like am perfect or anything in that sorts, but I don’t think anyone can think or imagine something like this happen to them nor does anyone want this to happen. It is by far one of the hardest things that I can ever go through.  
This is only the beginning stage, I’m sure I will cry and hurt some more as this process finishes. Its so sad to think of what could have been but, can no longer be! This was exactly how I wanted everything to go. I wanted Madison to be oh so very close in age with this new little one but, obviously, God has other plans. It hurts because I truly thought this was God’s plan for me to have this baby… and I guess it was… it just took a different turn then what I had imagined.
Ladies who have gone through this more then once… I don’t even know what to say… because by me saying you are strong does not help one bit of what you are feeling or what you must have felt. But what I do know now is that you are not alone ( i am not alone). People can tell you over and over that it is better now then later on in pregnancy for this to happen (which is true), but anything or everything that anyone says cannot undo what I am or you are feeling. The process itself is so hard. Seeing and feeling your body get rid of this precious little thing that could have been is just beyond sadness.
YES,  I know, i am truly very blessed that i already have 3 beautiful healthy baby girls.  i am so very, very thankful for them and blessed to be able to have kids! but, this doesn’t make this process any easier, it still hurts… a lot.
God knows the plans he has for me and I know that he will turn this into good.
As mad as I was at Him and angry, deep down inside, I know, His way is the best way. He knows what my future awaits me and my family. I cant see my future but He can, so that is why He knows what is best for me in the long run. I will always trust in him even through the storms because I know he brings sunshine in the end results.